The struggle within~

The last time I actually updated this blog was like... 2 months ago? Not sure if people even read this but yea, today I just felt like penning it down...

Honestly I am very VERY sad. 

JUST.SO.SAD

So many things happened these couple of days/weeks/month, it is not like I don't keep myself in check but this is seriously getting too much... 

All I can say is GOD SAVE ME

GOD SAVE ME

GOD SAVE ME

Who else knows better but You? 

I am generally a happy person, but I guess happy people break down too... just because I am wearing a smile doesn't mean I okay... 

What should I do to turn this sadness into strength? I try analyzing the human heart, but I can see no logic in it... 

I wish, I wish, I wish... but seems like it will only remain a distant dream~